Some wiLL loSe....soMe wiLL win...the matter iS,wud u Stop beLievin'?[my open diary]

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dah 3 hari x update belog!haha...kemanakah saya?mungkin tu adalah tempoh berkabung bg ak...wah..sgt pathetic...bg org US...maybe tarikh sedih mereka adalah September,11....tp ak ialah pada March,11...haha...x habis2..waktu tu...dunia rasa sgt sempit bg ak...pndang muka mak ak nangis...pndang muka ayah ak rse nak nangis...tepon kaklang ak nanges...nk pndang muka abang pon ak x sanggup...[ya abang!saya x dpt beat awak..maaf!]....rase mcm GIVE UP sgt~...cam "ohh...tis is the end for me!":(....

.......so ak pon mengambil keputusan memerap dlm bilik...hahaha...SGT PATHETIC!...ak benci hari tu...sume org tepon+sms nk taw result ak...x payah taw xley ker??kalau result cantekk xpe jgk..haha...tapi.......

esok harinye my bro knocked my door..."dik..bukak jap"...aku macam..."nak ape?"...."bukakla jap"...so ak pon bukak ....pandang jer muka abang ak terus sedih..."kau tga bwat ape ni?"..."xde ape"...abang dok atas katil ak so ak pon dok je la seblah dye...mmg ak da start nanges lps tu...he hugged my shoulder then..."kaw jgn cmni dik...8A tu ok ape...[blablablablabla]"<= {ak x egt part tu} tp ak terharu  gila bila dgr ni.....

i will quote what he said..."tis is not the end of u...life ni macam circle tahu x...ade mase ko kat atas...tp ade mase ko kt bawah...xkan ade org yg mmg kt atas jer selalu...abang tau..ko upsr 5A...pmr 9A...tp tetiba spm x straight pulak...kau jgn rase down...sbb bila ko start rase down....sampai bila2 pon ko akn down...kau jgn jd mcm kaca...bila jatuh...pecah...tp jadi macam bola...sekali kau jatuh..kau bounce lagi tinggi...ko jgn risau la...byk lg opportunity lps ni...mcm abg..mmg la straight As pstu fly tp kt uni abang tu kau tau top student m'sia course abg tu sape?die spm biase2 je kot...pastu amik diploma je...result gempak dpt scholar pastu same jeh..fly jgk....ko nak amek medic kn...ko buat je dulu..kt matrix kalau ko score,ko stil bole minx scholar..ko jgn la mcm ni..duk lam bilik jer...u hav to told u'rself...ko sndry je dpt wat diri ko bangun balik..jangan sedih2 cam ni ek...ko down..automatically mak ayah pun rase down gak...just remember..life is a circle....jgn sedih lg tau....................ak stil lg (T.T) tp ak jwb je.."ok..thanx tau"

haha...bwat pertama kali lpas tu ak da x malu nak ckp ak dapat 8A je pon[A+ ke minus ke B ke kau org jgn tanye!]hahahaha....ye result saye x straight tp ade bengkok sikit..adehh..bkn nk kata seblm ni ak x bersyukur..ak syukur[ALHAMDULILLAH..] dapat la jgk cmtu drpd fail sume kan..tp ramai sgt kawan seperjuangan especially my besties yg dpt stret..so aritu jd cam down laa jgk..tp dengan gembiranya saya nak ckp yg saya da dpt my spirit balik...Alhamdulillah...=)

so buat kawan2 yg senasib dgnku yg stil rase down...ni membe ak pesan "hidup ni sentiasa ada peluang..jgn sekali-kali putus asa..sbb kalau kita putus asa...harapan  xkan datang cari kita!"

@buat kawan2 yg dpt straight A's n sipi2 dpt tu.....TAHNIAH SGT2!!xtau cmne nk beat korg~
@buat kawan2 yg se'level' dgn ak or yg xdpt ape yg kite aim tu...MARI BANGKIT SEMULA YA!bak kata mer...kita minta yg mahu,tp dapat yg perlu!Allah know the best!
@buat CIKGU2 semua...infinity thanx to all of u...
@buat ayah n mak...thanks 4 everything...i'll do better next time..
@buat asyraf dan ashiqin razak....thanks..thanks..thanks..u guys help me gain my spirit back..
@buat mai..aiza n sume kawan2 ku..arigato gozaimasu!=)

'..so we crawl..till we can walk again..then we'll run...until we strong enough to jump....then we'll fly...until there is no end...so let's crawl...crawl..crawl..."

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