i Can't be Perfect...but i'll Try really hard to make your days perfect!

i'm not a really tough girl...people seems to see me cheers but they dun know what's inside...i won't cry in front of people...unless it's unbearable...totally fragile..yet...i still can SMILE!yes!that's a fact!i can straight away smile after crying if someone makes jokes or i remember of sumthing hilarious...but it won't go away easily...it'll leave wound in my heart..haha..kinda mushy feeling rite now..[WHY?]...becoz i've too much worry on my result...i wanted to pay my parents' sacrifices so bad!everyone in my clan advising me to take medic...yeah!i wanted it sooo baaaad too!but can i?[pray for me please]...my father is a retired teacher...but long before he became a teacher,he once was a medical assisstant...i've always dicussed about taking medic wit him..well he always told me about the experiences he achieved in hospital and what inspire me the most and fire my agitation to be a doctor is this..

"ayah penah kerja kat hospital dgn dkt sekolah...tp antara dua2 tu kat hospital lagi satisfying...nak tahu sebab ape?"

"nak!"

"ayah rasa gembira sangat bila tengok org happy sebab dah sihat...bila datang...macam2 muka ade...sume x ceria...tp ayah rasa satisfied sebab kite dah try our best to give them the best treatment we can....tp still.. frust jgkla bile ade patient die..."

we had that conversation long ago but i still could remembe r it clearly in my mind...even he's not a doctor..he had that same precious experiences in the hospital....see?it's not just giving people the treatment they should have or just help people the way they should be helped but it's more about bringing back SMILE in them...i can sense that he wanted me to be in the medical field like what he'd done long ago even though he never said that to me..i am the last hope he had since all my siblings weren't interested in taking medic..haha..i'm the youngest after all....i wanted to make the people around me happy even if i'm not...well at least i'll try to..