Assalamualaikum,
**This is just some rambling for the time beings. Coz idk how to express my real current emo state in front of people apatah lagi nak put into words. Haha. I know I'm weird. >.<
It might gets into you, or might not.
It's boring, I warned ya. blah blah blah :P
Okay let me start.
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A chance came knocking me recently. Though for the time beings, frankly speaking for me, the chance is 1/12 or somesort, still feeling that 1/12 chance is wayy far from me (well, siapalah daku yang kecil ini), but a chance is a chance. For a normal me, I should be psyched but I'm don't really. Instead, other people yg excited. LOL. But at least, they made me a lil happy for being excited.
Well, maybe there's a lot to think of. 'That' responsibility will always be mine till Allah knows best. That was the first question I asked myself when I started this pun. And when just recently other things add up pula, I flopped for a while but made me become more alert. Looking at those critical time frame, really put me into dilemma. I know, both decisions gonna scar my heart, more or less. Both need sacrifice. Its not that I'm alone but looking at those dear eyes, I know right away what's in the heart, no words needed.
Life is all about decision. No matter how I hate to decide, I have to, sooner or later. I won't be knowing what is the best for me, that is not my job to be 100% certain of that. That's all HIS plan. What I think best for me just might not be as what it seems. But I have to try, and put all rationality into place, and decide. And open my heart, and let HIM guide. I just have to turn and return to HIM everytime. Opportunity will come knocking and go. If I swallow something bitter today, doesn't mean that I don't get the chance to taste the sweetness of tomorrow. I remembered the small talk I had with Acabe last fortnight, he share some stories and at the very end he did say something that gets me the most. Just what I need in the most random time I could ever ask. Hehe
#We never gonna know when is the turning point in our life. Face whatever you are doing right now and try the best to be good at it.
#It's really hard to determine whether we made a right decision or a bad decision. What we deserve or what we don't. Yes indeed, we can say that if we decide on something and the outcome is good, we have made the right decision and vice versa. Yet, little do we'll know whether that 'good' outcome that we think we hit eventually going to bring us down in the future. Or even maybe, the bad decision with the bad outcome actually going to boost us to the best we can ever have kan? Do instill this in your heart, that is not our job, that is all Allah's plan. Just be a go-getter! Hiks.
#It is not the feeling of regret that matters, it's about the lessons that you get after all.
#Rezeki differ from one person to another. Some in their studies, some in the job world, some in the family life, some have it early in life, in the midst or even at the very end. And the champion is of course who succeed in the hereafter. Who might know kan? There is thousands or millions of life path, even I never knew mine. Just keep going, never look down on others who seems inferior or with a different pathway just because we feel that we are in the right path and never feel down looking at others who seems superior. Our life might have some twist ending :D
Wallahu a'lam.
So yeah, I think I'll just try to be the best, insyaAllah.
Jazakallahu khair.
p/s: Continue to pray for MH370. Please come home. :'(
It's a hot and hazy days nowadays. The sun and moon looking sick. I'm sick as well. lol
love,
MaRsh
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