It's been six years I left this piece of me. There are times I revisited this blog, re-read the old posts, but never to write anything. But today I feel like writing one. A short one.
I used to be a wallflower.
Just a mediocre girl. Nothing fancy, not a pretty one, never the brightest.
My stature is not helping too :p
Not so many people can notice me, my potential within that sits with me all my life.
Of course I can feel, it's myself.
But maybe I'm too shy, too scared, to afraid to show it.
Thus, I can feel how people look at me.
I can feel when I'm being taken for granted.
I can feel when I'm unwanted.
I can feel when I go unnoticed.
I can see within their eyes.
Only few can see within me.
Gave me opportunities to grow those potential.
Gave me a space to made mistakes and learn from them.
In order to make me a better self.
Things happened, thing changed, experiences gained.
I'm forever thankful to those who helped me grow.
Cuts and bruises, all that are parts of life.
I don't hold grudges, but maybe I never wanted to be affiliated ever again.
Fast forward,
today I felt like I'm not really a wallflower anymore.
Maybe I've bloomed to another kind.
Just enough at least for this time.
I'm a wallflower no more.
P/S: My intern supervisor used to call me "A small flower in a greenhouse". That's cute but with a deep meaning. Let it lives with me :D